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When Bad Days Come...

Inspire Wellness: A Thought on Depression and Anxiety

I Wish He Chose To Stay

A very close friend of mine ended his own life on Wednesday morning 9/9/15.

He texted me that morning at 7:23 AM  "Know that I've been praying for you."

And then he took his life...

I found out that night, and I was shocked, in disbelief, and then crushed...

I collapsed on my bed sobbing.... :'(  My mom held me for a while and then my dad came and also held me. He gave me a blessing to give me comfort. It meant so much to me that he did that.

I had 2 yard work jobs the next day, I am grateful I worked alone because I kept breaking down off and on...

It hurts to know that despite how hard I have tried, in the end, it didnt work to keep him here.
He was always an amazing friend. He was always willing to help out and he loved to serve. He stood up for what he believed in. He was so nice, always trying to help someones day go better. The world lost a very amazing person...

Even though I know he is in a better place, I still have so many emotions of confusion, pain, hurt, and sometimes anger...although I feel bad for feeling that way.

Something that gives me comfort is that He is now able to see clearly how much he is loved. I am positive that Heavenly Father is taking amazing care of him...I am sure he is with loved ones, feeling love and joy.
It still hurts when I think about it...His funeral was on Monday the 14th, I wished I didn't have to go..But I know I needed to I guess to face it, or to let him know I cared.. He was loved here, He is loved by so many. I wish we could have helped him see that better. I wish I could have done more :(
I wish I could have....

The last time I saw him was the Sunday before he passed. We talked for a few minutes and I gave him a half hug...I visited his grave this week and I told him that next time I saw him I would give him a good hug. I didn't know it would be the last time on Earth I would have the chance. If I would have known I would have given him a better hug. :/

It is so interesting watching my life now, how hard it is to get back into reality. Its painful some days, then others I am fine, or even happy! I wasn't expecting this, I feel like every part of life right now has been affected, everything is more confusing, more hard to do the normal every day things.

The only thing I know is that  as I turn my life over to God, he will help me overcome this..I just need to pray that God will lift this burden for me. I am grateful to have the knowledge that there is life after death, and that My Savior knows the pain that I am going through. He suffered for everyone.

Balancing Everything?

I came across this tree on my walk today. I found it interesting how half of it was perfectly green and the other half was completely dead!
It got me thinking about my own life and wondering if my life was staying balanced or if I was keeping one part green while other parts were dying...

How often do you take an inventory of your life and examine whether you could be spending more time in areas that may be neglected. We have a lot of areas: Work, education, family, friends, spiritual, physical, mental, others! How are you doing?

For me, I am doing better than I ever have with my physical health, although I am still trying to figure out why I'm not sleeping well. For my education and mental health, I have been attending college and sometimes I will pick up a personal development book. I also recently started a classic called Girl of the Limberlost. My emotional health has been quite an adventure trying to figure out. I find that if I keep a journal and do hobbies occasionally then I feel more emotionally stable. I am working on that one. I have been trying to keep in better contact with my family and stay involved in their lives, and I realized that I really love my family! Imagine that! Friends, well, not sure about that subject at the moment.
So, my point is YOU need to take an inventory of your life. Just check in and ask yourself, "How am I doing?" and then listen for a response.
Do you want a beautiful, green tree, or a dying one?

This is a momentous occasion in history....Starting at 18:05 mins for the 1.5 mile run at the start of the semester....ending with 13:53 mins. at the end of the semester!!!
My goal was 15 mins...and I beat it! I have never been a runner but I feel awesome! Thank you Herbalife, my clogging class 3x per week, and motivation! I feel soo PROUD of myself!!

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